This morning I was awakened with the chorus of this song playing over and over in my head. I hadn’t heard this song in months so I knew it came from my Spirit. Upon spending some time listing to the song on repeat, it became my prayer. It became everything I’ve been feeling spiritually for a while now. Do you have those times in life when you don’t understand what’s going on? Those times when you know something is off in your life, but you can’t explain what it is. Everywhere you turn, there’s trouble. Everything you’re trying is falling through and not working. No matter how hard you try, you just can’t figure your life or a situation out. It feels as though your life is disjointed. There’s a kink in the chain somewhere.
While listening to the song and resting in the tub, it became very clear to me that my relationship with God was misaligned. My mind, body, and soul were out of alignment with my heavenly connection. While the song played and my heart softened, it felt as though the Lord was singing the words to me. Telling me He needed to connect with me. He was telling me He missed my presence. He needed to spend time with me. He enjoyed spending time with me. It was an incredible revelation that comforted my heart in ways nothing else ever can. I was able to completely relax and soak in His love. My body rested in the arms of my Savior. Even my unborn child was free. She moved around in my womb as though she was dancing and completely uninhibited. I had never felt such movements in my entire 8 month pregnancy so far.
I didn’t realize how much stress and anxiety I was carrying until I was able to completely relax this morning. Spending interrupted time in the presence of my Savior was just what my soul needed. Even my baby benefited from my sense of peace. The best thing about this moment is that it can be felt everyday with a deliberate effort on my part. I don’t have to go days, weeks, or months without resting in the arms of my Savior and I shouldn’t. I’m created as an extension of Him. His word is very clear that when I am separated from Him, I can do nothing (John 15:5). I have vowed to do whatever it takes to ensure I stay connected to the source of my life. Things are not magically perfect, but my peace is restored and with peace, you can do anything. With Christ, nothing is impossible. What an incredible experience. Thank you Father.