I keep telling myself I’m going to start my blog. I’ve honestly started it at least 20 times a day in my head. Here’s the thing. I think it will be really successful. But then I also know I may not be mentally prepared for that. I’m really good at a lot of things. Or so I think I am. And I say that in the humblest way possible. The issue is, I’ve always had a fear of success.
Now I know. Everyone has fears, but no one wants to admit or talk about them. No one wants to hash them out and reveal what they are. Well, I’m not afraid. I use to be. But not anymore. I see people dying everyday and I think to myself, if I died in my sleep tonight, what did I leave behind?
That’s a pretty sobering thought if you really think about it. I want to leave good things behind. I want people to say beautiful things about me. I’ll be completely honest, there was a time in my life when I didn’t care what I left behind and my actions proved it. And if you were ever caught in the crossfire, I sincerely apologize.
I have changed.
I have grown.
I have lived.
And I have learned.
The biggest lesson for me? God is real. That’s one fact I cannot and will not ever deny.
It’s truer than the air I breathe. If I never was convinced before, I am now.
I believe that each day is a message from God. Each day we are alive, is a message saying we have another chance. There’s still time. You can get it right. You can fix it. You can do it this time. Keep trying. Keep going. Keep fighting. Get back in the game. Take another shot. Maybe the next time will be it. Don’t quit. And then one day it just stops. But you have no clue what day that will be or how long until it comes. Well, I don’t want to waste it. I don’t want to lose my focus ever again.
December 3, 2015